Pretty good night, especially by my standards. We had our Toastmasters awards dinner tonight and since i was president last year i had to do the awards presentations and the thank you-type speech. it went way better than expected, especially after all my running about after trophies and trying to decide who would get what award etc...went for a few afterwards with some of our members. it was pretty awesome actually, grown up conversation, a few laughs, some genuinely interesting conversation...nobody too drunk and me not really feeling tipsy at all having just gotten home. score: me 1 - history 0

on a side note, i am going to tell a current story in my life that i find very ironic. please don't think i'm complaining or being emo or trying to induce guilty or anything like that, i simply find it ironic and i would be amused if anyone else felt similarly after reading it. i have had a friend recently who keeps telling me i need to be positive about myself and more self-confident and how if i am positive and such then i'll get things that i want and deserve. i also tend to not like my appearance. i have never really found myself attractive and always kind of assumed i needed to maintain perspective and a 'real' personality if i ever was going to have a chance of finding a good guy. anyways (i really should've noticed this earlier in life), the same person who says i should be confident and i will get want i want...wants me. but only really sex with me. the irony is that i always thought i would have to rely on my personality to get my anything and now this person doesnt want my personality, just my vag.     i'm right in saying that's ironic, right?