Been a bit depressed lately. I've moved into my new flat. I like it, my room is nice and cozy, especially now that I have a dresser and a bed and my posters up on the walls.
as for things with andy, they've gone a bit complicated. we still hang out a lot, i sleep over there a couple times a week, so i s'pose we're sort of together still, but with no real strings and apparently no future, which really really weirds me out occasionally. it's alright though, he's awesome to hang out with and such and for all i know I'll be moving back to the states in a couple months and will have a whole new life starting again. just every once in a while i wonder why i'm spending time with a guy that i like even though there isn't a chance of anything more. i'm enjoying the present, and trying not to even think about the future, but occasionally i start thinking myself cross-eyed about it all.
my uni stuff is okay i s'pose. going to a conference next week that i'm presenting at even though i dont have many results and i'm totally not ready for it. should be fun other than my presentation. maybe i'll work out a way to post my powerpoint or something, just for the hell of it...
my bloody collarbone is supposedly healing, but it's taking FOREVER and making me more and more depressed as i continue not being able to do anything. i still can't play soccer, i still can't lift anything, i still can't sleep on my stomach or on my right side....driving me nuts. i think the fact that it makes me not sleep well really plays with my head cuz i get so tired and then i start getting all lonely and depressed and wishing i had more friends who were there to support me when i felt like crap. not to say i dont have friends. i've been hanging out with jess about once a week to catch up about soccer and life, and i hang out with andy pretty often. it's just that i always kind of feel like i'm intruding on other people and asking so much from them to make me feel better, it's not really fair for them.
i HATE when people smack their gum really loudly in an otherwise quiet place. makes me want to turn around and ask if they are actually a cow in disguise. bah!
anyways...i'm supposed to be working on my presentation but i really just want to get out of here and do something fun or at least fun-ish. there aren't many fun things i can do anymore. stupid fucking shoulder.