ahhh...i keep meaning to post, but the enormity of all the stuff going on in my life keeps stopping me. i'm trying to to let myself worry about anything or get sad or whatever and i knew that writing in here would cause that to happen. now i think i'll be okay doing it, plus if anyone ever reads this, i s'pose i should keep it at least semi-updated...
my collarbone is healing slowly, still in a sling, still can't do much more than gently swing it to stretch it. it's unbelievably frustrating because they can't force it to be immobile, thus the temptation to do so much more is always there. i've been a good girl about it, but it's so frustrating and it's putting me really really far behind on my uni work because i'm not supposed to lift things or do much pipetting and i need to do lots of that stuff to stay on track. i go back to the orthopedic clinic on monday for some xrays and hopefully the removal of my sling. we'll see how it goes
i'm moving on wednesday. Andy and i are splitting up and so i'm moving out. it's civil and friendly and i'm really hoping we can still hang out and have fun. my new place is in kelburn, about a 2 min. walk from uni and just at the top of the cable car. 5 bedroom place, small lounge, small kitchen, but i've got my own room and a mini deck type thing. i'll try to post some pictures once i've moved in. the logistics of moving when i can't carry anything are quite tough. i'm borrowing juliets car to move my stuff, hoping bean will help me carry it up to the place. unfortunately, the bed i'm buying isn't available til friday so i may sleep on the couch in my new place or on my sleeping pad on the floor. i also have to sort out how i'm going to move the bed. it doesn't come apart so i need a van or a truck or something to get it from miramar out to my new place. complicated. all good though.
my uni stuff is getting more and more behind. i was starting to catch up when i broke myself, but now i can't go collect new anemones and i'm not meant to be doing much pipetting or anything. i've got a couple experiments on that i'm working on now, but none of them are the big 8-week one that i can't even start until i somehow get out and collect 70 anemones one-handed. it's gonna be awesome.
oh well. all of my good friends are moving away from bagels and from wellington. juliet leaves for england in a few weeks, hannah already resigned and i think leaves at the end of this week for england, dan (my manager) resigned and is gone. the store is pretty much me and bean. if you add everything up, it appears that my life is really shitty, but i'm not allowing myself to see it like that. i'm looking at it as a bunch of new opportunities.
i'm moving into a new flat with new people, so hopefully i can find some new friends there. i'm starting to get more involved in my uni work, so hopefully i'll start to make up ground and be really productive so that i can produce an aewsome thesis. andy and i are splitting up, but hopefully we'll still hang out so i've got him as a friend and will spend more time on me, since i wont have the opportunity to spend so much on him. i've been hanging out more with jess, a friend from teh soccer team, so hopefully that'll continue and once again i can get new friends.
i went home for 2 weeks. first time i'd been home in a little over 2 years. it was really nice to see how things dont change too fast, really nice to drive my baby car. god i love that car. really nice to see things that are familiar to me and see berkeley and stockton and my parents and such. made me think a lot about what i used to be like. the crazy over-acheiver who never had anytime to sit around and think about things. the person who could do absolutely anything she wanted and who went out and got things. that's not me now, i've got to decide if i want that back, if i can bring back that drive so that i can enjoy the rest of my life getting into interesting things.
i still haven't decided if i'm staying i NZ or going back to the states. half the time i say i'm going to see where i can find a good job, the rest of the time i say i'm pursuing a specific interest which is based mainly in teh states so i'm going back there. i dont think i ever want to actually make the decision, but i'll have to at some point. we'll see how that goes.
i'm going to the NZMSS conference next month. actually doing a presentation at it too. we'll see how it goes, hope i dont get too nervous and i hope i figure out something to say because i can't figure much out right now.
anyhow, i'm sure there's more going on, but i'll think of it later. time to go pretend to do some work
ciao