hmm...so, would it be better to sit here and puzzle out what the hell caused that sort of reaction from me? or just say "it happened, it's in the past" and hope it doesn't happen again? really bothered me for some reason. very strange.
anyways...update.
physio thinks the leg thing is where the hamstring muscle attaches to the bone. guestimated i'll be out of soccer for 4-6 weeks. i'm hoping for 4 and gonna do everything in my power to help it get better. i might go completely insane though cuz i've been looking forward to playing soccer so much, its hard to sit and watch, especially for that long. i've never really been injured before so i'm not sure how it's really gonna go over on me. we'll see won't we!
bagels has been decent. it's fun, but always leaves me smelling like bagels and pretty tired. it's a lot of time spent standing up. and now that i have this butt thing, i find myself getting more and more sore as the day goes on. it's not like it's bad, its' just kind of annoying. when i get home it's so nice to just flop on the couch and relax. unfortunately, this flopping on the couch is getting me very behind in my schoolwork. basically my school for the rest of the sem looks as follows:
today is may 10 (10/5)
11/5-double-entry journal for 425
17/5-reading for 422
19/5-double-entry journal for 425
May take a trip down to christchurch this weekend.
23/5-422 reading
25/5-journal for 425
30/5-assignment #2 (lots of work) for 422
1/6-essay #2 for 425
8/6-insect and plant collections for 425.
Now, I know that it doesn't seem like htat much. The essay for 425 I have a lot of research done, it just needs to be written. Haven't started the 422 assignment, but i'm mostly worried about the collections for 425. I have to have 25 bugs from different families and i have 7. I still need to find a termite, a cockroad, a weta, an earwig, a lacewing.....heaps of bugs to find and now that i'm mobility limited it makes it even harder. not only do i have to find them all, but i need to pin them and label them. haven't even started the plant/algal collection which requires identification and pressing of at least 25 specimens. it takes like a week to press them, so i need to find 25 different plants and figure out how to press them by the end of may. ack! and yet i keep procrastinating. sometimes it fucks me off to basically watch me screw myself over. grrrr....must go bug/plant collecting. i just wish i had someone in the class to do it with because i'm so afraid of doing it wrong that i put off doing it. i'm gonna run out of time though and it's gonna be bad.
in other news, this semester is nearly over. no exams for me..yay!
alex leaves in a little over a month. sort of makes me realize i have no friends. like, after he leaves i have andy. yup. that's about it. i'm pathetic.
i mean, i have friends that i talk to in the places htat i know them. but when i'm bored at night, or need someone to talk to or something...there is nobody except andy. and not that i mind that, but it's really not a position i want to put myself into. damn bugs!
damn people.
damn my leg
damn my dysfunctional brain!!!
i really should be doing the journal that's due tomorrow, but i didnt really understand the paper which makes it a bit difficult.
i actually have a lot of stuff on my mind, but most of it i can't really elaborate on in here. i wish i could think of something to do that would help get rid of all of it, but there isn't really anything. i cant even go running these days!! grrrrr
outta here...later