"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything"
k, so for some reason i had always thought the quote was 'its only after you have nothing that you're free to do anything' just watched fight club and sort of realized that its important to include the word 'lost'. Lost implies that you're not actively getting rid of what you've got, it's when things have gone, without specifically trying to have nothing. if you're trying to have nothing, you will never actually have nothing. not sure how much sense that actually makes, but it's definitely what i realized watching this stupid movie. i've also seen this too many times. i know all the damn words. i do like it, and i like the music from it.
"got it, got it, got it...shit i lost it..."
"you're gonna go out and start a fight with a total stranger...you're gonna start a fight...and you're gonna lose"
its a wonder there aren't more random-as fights goin on. most at least pretend to have some reason
i smell like bagels. i hate smelling like bagels. i should go shower, but i'm watching fight club...obviously
i've been VERY frustrated lately. VERY VERY frustrated. work at wholly bagels has been slightly (Read: very) annoying lately. we keep being understaffed, and somehow the fucking shit always falls to me. like friday when i was "head" in the back and i only had 2 people instead of 4 and still got everything done, but got slammed at the beginning of lunch..it was pretty shit. today we were again understaffed, and for some reason rhiannon went on her break at the beginning of lunch, so there were 2 of us on when the lunch rush started. we were once again completely slammed. this fucking pisses me off. i suppose that we just need to hire more people and others need to not get sick (cuz they can really help that, eh)
"tomorrow will be the most beautiful day of raymond k hessels life"
ahhh....then at the soccer game yesterday i was about ready to kill anything near me. i mean. i got to start, but the field was really short and i didnt really have anywhere to run. not only that but the ball seriously never came over to my side of the fucking field. i was SO pissed. unfortunately i think it started to show. after the game i was stading by myself outside in the rain trying not to strangle anything or kick a ball as hard as i could, and luke (the coach) asked "frustrated"? i was like "unbelievably". i thought it might have showed cuz i just kept trying and trying and the ball just never came my way. i was doing the silly frustrated habits like kickin my toe into the ground and the posture. grrrrr....not only that but when the ball did come i fucked it up.FUCKED it up. i was about to strangle EVERYTHING!
i did get some of my work done today. i'm actually ready for class tomorrow!
WHEE..THATS IT FOR NOW wow...caps...