ah, well, it's Thursday afternoon and I'm up at campus trying to waste time until the lab portion of my biodiversity class. We have to do an insect collection and a plant collection, so the lab part is where they show us how and we can get help. I've caught 1 bug. = P I haven't gone to one of these yet, so I figure I prolly should. Anywho, I've survived this week so far.
Tuesday night, the 5K fun run I did was awful. I realized that not only am I completely out of shape, but i'm mentally just not as tough as i used to be. I gave in and just watched as these unbelievably large/slow/ungainly people ran past me. VERY FRUSTRATING. I decided that I should start making better decisions and instead of being a "poor me" working to regain that mental toughness that I had before that allowed me to be a good athlete and do well in my school stuff. I figure the main problem is that I've lost my sense of self-discipline. True, when I was in high school it was strongest and that's when my parents were around putting huge amounts of pressure on me and sort of forcing me to be focused. Now I can't focus myself and I'm slowly becoming less and less productive as time goes on. Pisses me off! Anyways, the run was a big angry wake-up call for me. I'll do it next week and I'll prolly be just as slow, but hopefully I can gain on myself mentally. Grrr....
Wednesday I went to work. got home, grabbed a snack and went off to soccer. more frustration, but i love soccer. We have a "friendly" game on Sunday against some other team, so they named a "first 11" for this sunday. It's not the final team or anything, but I think it's a good thing. Oh, yeah, i'm in this "first 11" and i get to start in a left midfield sort of position. I'm a little worried because the position he described sounds like something I'd love and be awesome at, but I've never played it and I'm very out of shape. Especially for a midfield position since one should constantly be running in midfield. We'll see how it goes. I'm really excited about being able to play in a game though because I know I play better in games than at practice, so I'm hoping to make a damn good impression at teh game and keep this spot that i have temporarily accrued.
After soccer I went to the bar and worked for a while. Andy was there, it was random, went a bit late and then i went up and fed my anemones and then went home to bed. Didn't sleep very well. Anyone else ever notice that drunk people tend to snore? Especially when they sleep on their back. = P Woke up and went to class this morning where I couldn't formulate a single thought on the topic so I prolly got a real shit grade for the day. Grrrr.
Lots of things to be frustrated about, but nothing that has a simple, quick fix, so hopefully over time all will work out. I'm going climbing tonight. Alex has a date so I'm forcing Andy to come with me. Can't miss my climbing! Woohoo!
Got school stuff to do now. Cheers