it's been a long time, because for some reason writing in here is a very daunting task to me. everytime i'm in the shower i think of what to write, but then i totally chicken out. even now, i'm not writing all the crap that i've been doin...mainly cuz i gotta run off to class, but i just really felt the need to say something short.
as much as i can go out and hang out with friends and be social...i still wonder if i did the right thing. i miss him so much...i guess on the whole i'm a little happier, but i think that may just be because i'm busy and i'm sailing and all that...i just really miss those times we had. i really miss the person he can be. and i just cant decide if i was right, or if i should have kept working to not have everything be such a fucking issue...
i dont know
gotta run to class....shouldn't have written before having to go out in public...oh well