d'oh
i've been a bad girl
not a naughty girl....most of you know that could never be me...as much as i talk, i'm pretty much full of shit
but i've been bad...not takin the meds...flipping out...
d'oh
i wish i could be homer simpson...or a beautiful girl like marisa...damn that show
damn my low self esteem...damn me trying to figure things out...thinking too much
i'm supposed to be remembering and even writing down my inner monologue, but it goes too fast, and it's usually pretty sub-conscience...what i wanna do is bring it up to the conscience level and be able to "edit" it.
thank god for the people...the person
thank god for knowing that underneath all my made up shit...i'm there somewhere
i try too hard
and i'm totally a leaky faucet...someone turn me off...i hate crying
random thoughts on a night when i should be working
or at least organizing
hmmmmm
much to do
not much focus
been really, really unfocused lately
been really retarded lately
yeah
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pink
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smooth
cozy
worried
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madagascar
positive
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life
original
safe