Today I'm off to do something that scares the bejesus out of me for no reason. I'm going anemone collecting, but I'm taking the train to do so and going by myself. Going by myself scares me a little just cuz it's kinda lonely wading around in the shit-smelling mud and I already have enough motivation problems with collecting. I'm more afraid of taking the train. I've only taken the train once here in NZ and it went fine, but for some reason I'm still really uncomfortable taking the train, especially on my own. I've got my gumboots in my backpack, so I won't look too weird, but I can't fit the shovel in there, so I'm contemplating just taking a really big cooking spoon or something to avoid carrying the shovel all over with me. I'll just look so silly walking around with a big shovel and then on the way back, walking with a big shovel and a little container full of tiny sea anemones. Plus by that point I'll probably be quite muddy, freezing, and since it kinda looks like rain, I might end up drenched as well. I'm such an optimist on these things!! Oh well.
I think I might take some food and go early so that I can start collecting as soon as the tide is low enough. It's really not a very low tide today and I'm not sure it's even worth it to try to go out today, but I really really need to get some of my own anemones and I need to do it soon, so I might as well give it a try. Gah. Off to be brave now! Woohoo!