So I've sort of realized that I'm, unfortunately, not one of those people who can just simply go through my life and be happy. I think I get bored with things too easily, and I get unhappy when things in my life don't interest me and don't challenge me. Thus, I've realized that I need to get out and make myself happy. I need to be more proactive in my own life. Doesn't really seem like that much of a revelation, but I hope I can stick to it cuz I really think it'll help my state of mind.
I realized this today while I was out for my nice 45 min. run! All day today I kept thinking that I should get out for a run so that I can be in better shape, and also to test out my sore ankle and just see what it's up to. It was fine, and the run was so nice. I love when I go for random runs like that and actually feel good. I think I'm in mildly better shape than I thought because I've been playing a lot of soccer and actually working at soccer. That's not to say it wasn't tiring and I'll probably be sore tomorrow, but it made me feel good. When I got home from uni I basically just didn't turn my computer on and didn't allow myself to sit down at all, I walked straight in and changed into my running clothes.
I got home and vaccumed our apartment cuz it's been looking kinda manky lately and I thought it might help to have the home looking nice. Next I'm hoping to shower and actually dry my hair down and just generally try to make myself look nice. I think if I look a bit more cleaned up and girly, maybe I'll start feeling better about myself again.
Today when I was walking around town I just felt confident, I've been missing that and I think it's actually what kept me from getting down for so long when I first got here. I walked around everywhere thinking about how I had moved to a new country all on my own and I could take care of myself and meet people and be an interesting person that people would like. I want that back. That confidence, which can almost feel like sassiness. is that a word? anyways, i know what i mean and i like that feeling, so instead of wandering around and hoping to feel confident sometimes, i'm gonna work to get myself feeling good physically, and feeling good about how i look and appear to other people. I really think it'll help.
In other news, my soccer team lost on Sunday, but we really shouldn't have. I thought we could have beaten them. Andy and flatmate DC have said they're both gonna come to the game on Sunday and bring lots of bourbon and coke and get real pissed watching us play. We'll see if it actually happens. Would be very amusing if it did happen.
Tomorrow is ANZAC day, which is much like veterans day in the states. We get the day off, and instead of working it, like I do most holidays (extra pay), I chose to take it off so that I could spend the day with Andy, maybe have a picnic or something. Turns out he probably has to work cuz he's got some big job that has to be finished this week. Oh well, I'm not as upset as I probably would have been in the past. It happens. I've got soccer training in the morning anyways, so I'll be happy if we just get a little time to maybe go for a walk or get outside away from work environments.
I should go shower so I don't look like a drowned rat for my boy = )
Cheerio!
(Cheerios are not very popular over here and are also pretty new. It's weird)