Thursday, February 22, 2007

And then it was mid-February...
My parents arrived in NZ on the 31st of Jan. We went down to the South Island and did the Milford Track (a very famous hiking trail). It was absolutely beautiful with stunning views and so far from civilization one could almost forget about the real world. Really annoying sandflies however. Milford is in Fiordland and is well-known for the views, but also for the flooding and constant rain. They get some insane amount of rain per year and the trail is often flooded and requires hiking through thigh-deep water. We managed to get 4 days without a cloud in the sky. Beautiful weather!! Didn't use any of the bulky water-proof gear we carried with us, but oh well. Finished driving around the island visited the Speights brewery in Dunedin, went horsey riding in Kaikoura, had a good time all around. Now my parents are touring around the North Island while I'm working and doing school stuff. They'll be back on the 1st of March and then fly home on the 3rd of March.
As for schoolwork, it's still sucking. I haven't really done much since my last post because I was out of town and then this last week I worked 38 hours or something crazy. Today I'll be trying to find something to do with myself up there, but we'll see how that goes. I've totally lost my motivation. It doesn't seem interesting because the project has become a series of unrelated and kinda random experiments on the really boring organism that nobody really cares about. Being one who's never been so good at motivation in the first place, it ain't helpin. I guess I'm one of those people who just kinda needs moral support or something and it's not there and my own support is barely there. Sucks.
Work's been really good. I've been moved into a supervisor role, so I get to be in charge of the store on Sundays and several afternoons a week. Not really that huge of a promotion, but it's fun to know what's going on with the store and get my extra $1/hour. People at work are always fun, good, random conversations, hanging out outside of work is fun to because we're all fun and have a good time acting silly. It's fun.
Things with the boy have been really good except for this morning, which is pretty much all my fault anyways. Oh well. Last week was awesome because I'd been away for 2 weeks and it felt again like it had when we were first together and he enjoyed hanging out with me and all that. Now it's kinda going back to how it was, which isn't exactly a bad thing since too much of any one person isn't particularly healthy. I'm just one of those people (as most people know) who likes my attention. = P It's all good though. Most of the things we disagree about are a bit silly and I'm usually just being weird. Kinda sucks that when it's something that actually matters to me he never wants to actually talk about it or explain it or anything, but it's not really needed i s'pose. I guess the thing on my mind at the moment is that I kinda feel like I could fall off teh planet for 10 days or so and he would never notice. Or might notice, but wouldn't worry or anything. Bah. I'm silly.
I should be heading up to uni now. Gotta go poke some anemones or something. Really feeling kinda depressed though and dn't really feel like dealing with people. Oh well. Sitting around here being lonely probably just serves to make it worse....
Ciao

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I find that the people at my job are what either makes it fun or not. We've recently lost a lot of the fun people at my own work, so I'm contemplating a departure. I'm a bit envious that yours is still fun.

Regarding your dude, you should give your own feelings more merit than you do- you keep putting yourself down: "this morning... is all my fault", "I'm usually just being weird", "when it's something that ... matters to me he never wants to talk about it,... it's not really needed i s'pose", "Bah. I'm silly"

That's totally bullshit, and you know it. Its a relationship- not only are you allowed to feel wanted, you SHOULD feel wanted.