Once again, it's been a wee while. I'm only posting now cuz 1-i'm bored and 2-i feel like writing my new-ish revelations! sort of. First off, update: Today I'm finally getting my coffee training for work. Means I get to make coffees for people and put barista skills on my resume, also means I get a pay raise, and more of a challenge at my not-so difficult job. Good stuff. I also have my second indoor soccer game for the Wholly bagels team tonight. Should be fun, it's a bunch of fun people who like playing soccer even though they're not the best. Tomorrow I've got work and then a dinner party and then a going-away party. Saturday is my mom's birthday and I'm going to an All Blacks game!!! I'm gonna wear my jersey and paint my face and have fun. We'll prolly freeze our buns off, but I'm really excited about it. I might take a sign that says "happy birthday mom" and see if i can get on tv. Andy and I are going to record it and then see if we got on tv. Wheeeee!!
So I always thought it was just me, but I'm beginning to think it's most girls. In a relationship, girls often see themselves as being the better of the two. Meaning that it's the guys loss if they decide to leave. Not theirs, so the guy has to constantly keep them satisfied otherwise they leave. It works both ways, but I dont think guys are quite as selfish about it all. I'd like to say I'm not like that, but I am. Luckily I know I'm like that and I work really hard not to be like that. I've had times before when I think. "i have so much power over him cuz i could threaten to leave...." or "if he wants me to stick around...". basically saying that the guy had better try to keep me cuz i'll just leave, which isn't true. since I'm usually involved, my leaving would be hard for me too and i would be losing out as well. Note: This doesn't pertain to any particular person or anything. It's just general thoughts...
Along those lines, I do think I'm a good girlfriend. I have my issues, I have things that bother me when they shouldn't, but I do think that overall I'm not too bad. I try not to nag, I try to do nice things even when they're not asked for and I don't need to make up for something I've done...I just know that I like when people do random nice things for me, so I might as well do them for others and then I can make them happy and hopefully show that I like them. I tend to do those things when I'm feeling liked. Like, for instance, the past couple days I've felt a bit neglected. Not mad about anything, just sad, kind of like I'm a new toy that lost it's "newness" and put aside for a bit. I'll live, but anyways, last night was good. I sort of mentioned how I was feeling and I got lots of hugs and affection and such. This morning I am happy and I cleaned up and vacuumed. Go figure, eh? Considering that yesterday I thought about calling in sick to work because I honestly felt awful and today I feel happy. I know that I felt like crap yesterday because I was feeling down because I felt like that old toy. Now I don't. Wow. Lots of short sentences and too much about how I'm feeling. Hah.
Anyways, I'm off to uni to feed some anemones and maybe look at some under a microscope. woo. then it's off to coffee training and indoor soccer. lates.