Wow. So I've been busy (not really) and kinda forgot about this thing, but now I'm really bored and kinda have a lot of random stuff on my mind so I figure I'll tap somethin' out. Good way to waste time.
Update:
Uhhh...classes are over. I'm living with Andy with 2 other flatmates, one is really cool and the other seemed cool but has been acting a bit odd lately. We'll see. That's all going pretty well so far.
Bagels is so-so. Tuesday I worked for Bean and Dan and Josh were just taking the piss outta me the entire day, now I'm used to being made fun of and such, but it was just never-ending and really made me think about quitting that job and finding something that pays better and where I'm respected. HAh. yeah, right. Today at work was fine though, although it seems like there's something weird with Josh, my guess is that he thinks I hate him and I totally don't, I just don't want to talk to him cuz he's always kinda mean. Anyways..enough about work shit.
My thesis stuff is starting to kinda almost get under way. I met with my supervisor yesterday and in the next 3 weeks I have a lot to do. I have to start testing my anemones to see if they're usable and if they can even do what I want them to do. I need to also write up a protocol of what I'm doing, and learn a bunch of the techniques like zooxantellae extraction and infection of anemones and the imaging PAM and the flourescence microscope and such. Good stuff. It's a lot to do, but hopefully It'll keep me busy so I don't sit around being bored on my own.
In other news. I REALLY need to find some friends of my own. Now that Alex has gone home :( And Anne has gone, I really have nobody at all to hang out with other than Andy. Which means that I have a really hard time making peace when he wants to go hang out with his friends. I really don't want to stop him from doing that, but I just tend to get so lonely and stuff when he's not there because I have absolutely nobody to talk to or anything. It's like a really fine line that I struggle with. How do I get friends or at least not get so lonely and not dislike him hanging with his friends...? I'm actually quite unhappy with my life right now, but I'm not gonna get all depressed about it or anything. I just need to find new things to do and actually make friends that I can go out and do things with so I'm not the lonely, sucky, unpopular, no-life girl that I am at the moment. It sucks and it's tough. I don't really think he understands how hard it is for me to have no friends.
There's also the whole...things I said I'd never put up with that I do put up with and feel that I have no right to actually be unhappy about. I s'pose if they bother me that much I could leave. Gah. Too much thinking. My ear hurts. Anyways... I'm off now. Gotta go pretend I have something to do with my pathetic self. wheee...