Why can't someone else tell me what I'm thinking? Why do I keep having these moments when I don't really know what I'm thinking? I know it's all stress related and that my mindset is totally not set for this school thing. This week isn't really that bad. Just have the manuscript review due tomorrow morning and an essay and presentation on thursday morning. The manuscript review is mostly done, but I need to organize it and I can't seem to do it. My mind seems too scattered and worried about random other things. I s'pose I'll just hang out here and contemplate things and then turn off the music and just hammer something out. it'll be shitty, but it'll be done. then i have the bloody essay. i have an outline all done that should make the presentation pretty quick to hammer out. the essay will be a bit harder, but htey're on the same topic so i'm not actually that worried. i'm more worried about the fact that i feel like i can't focus. i feel like i need another opinion and someone i can really talk to about all this stuff, but there isn't anyone. i know i've been through all this before, this having nobody to really talk to, but it really is annoying. i mean...what am i supposed to do?!? i cant even write about it here. i can write about the soccer game this weekend, which we won and for once i didnt play like complete shit. just like a little shit. it'll get better. i need to be more confident. those first 2 crappy games killed that confidence i started out with. i'll work on it. i'll rule the world and be in the "player of the game email" that we got yesterday. just you wait and see. damn...if i type something up here i should prolly actually do it huh. anyways. everything's so different. it's hard for me to accept. got so used to one thing, then got used to the complete opposite, and now i'm just confused as shit. makes it hard for me to do work for some reason. i used to always have stuff on my mind while doing work. i was always upset about something for one reason or another. now i'm not upset i'm just confused and i cant get shit done. damn the world!!