i've been homesick recently. doesn't really make any sense since there's not much at home that i actually miss. like, i haven't seen my parents in a while, but i dont miss them that much. there aren't really any people that i specifically miss all the time. there are food places that i miss dearly. my god i want in-n-out!! and cheap chinese, and west coast cheesy-sticks....wah! last night i was listening to the cars outside and it reminded me of wandering around in berkeley at night in the rain. reminded me of living on channing and walking around to teh garage and leaving the door open in my room to hear the rain pour down. very strange thing to miss, but my goodnes did i ever miss it! it rains here, i can hear it, but the memories of my friends in berkeley, the times we had, the things we did. the sailing team hanging out, having drunken people stop by in the middle of the night, never really knowing how an evening would end up. i MISS that. now i know how my nights will end up. there's no possibility of random people showing up to drink on a tuesday night...there's no possiblility of weekends with people i know all doing silly things, or playing charades or kings in a fun group of people. if i do drink, it's either with one other person, or out at the bar with like 2 people i know and then doing the bar thing. house parties and drinking in a group of people you know is infinitley more fun!! i dont have a group of people i know! and the people that i do know, don't really do taht stuff. if they hang out and drink, it's at the bar. and if not at the bar its not usually just drinking. there's no drinking games, there's no connection with stuff outside of the party scene. they dont get drunk and make fun of people for stuff during the day because nobody sees eachother during the day. it's all to get away from what they do during the day. see...on wednesday night i'm supposed to drink with a bunch of people from work. that has tons of potential to be a fun fun night. because we'll prolly start by drinking at someone's house, meaning that we can actually get drunk and TALK (no loud music) and maybe play drinking games. plus it's people from work, so i see them on a fairly regular basis. we have gossip to joke about. i hope it's fun.
i can't believe that i probably wont go home at all for another year and a couple months. i have soccer every weekend til august or something, so that makes it hard to go home, plus it costs shitloads of money to go home. insanity. if i went home, i'd want to go out with the sailing team, but i dont have anywhere to stay in bekreley anymroe. i'd have to find someone's couch to crash on, and i haven't really kept in contact with any of those people. tho i s'pose if i were gonna be in town it'd be easy enough to get ahold of someone. speaking of money. i dont have much. i'm trying to work out if i can get a student load here or if i somehow have to apply for one back home....so complicated!! hah! all you people in the states are worrying about taxes! you have 5 days! mrs. green's birthday is april 15. dont know why i remember that still. oh, and traci's birthday was april 8th. yes, i remembered that in the middle of the night. very random.
think that's it for now.
ooh..my soccer game on sunday was really really fun. we won the game and i got to play left back and i didnt suck too bad! i wonder if luke (coach) might give me a chance to win that spot back from nico. everyone thinks she's all good, but i think i'm better, and i think part of the reason she looks good in that position was that i cover for her really well and actually help pick up her mistakes since i think i'm faster. and i'm getting a bit of my speed back. i need to keep playing indoor and maybe doing some other stuff. i want to get my strength back and be fast again. i also want to make better decisions. i was definitely not perfect on sunday, but it was better. i made some dumb decisions. i'll work on it!!
think that's it for now
cheers