having a bit of a blah day. got up this mornin' went up to uni to feed my lovely anemones. did that, went to the comp lab to print these articles and found out that the printer wasn't working. meh, got some coffee, went across the street and printed the stuff. then i got all brave and went over to student health and had a doctors appointment to figure out what's been hurting in my leg/butt area. the guy pretty much immediately said it was a strained muscle that's hurting at the point where it attaches to the bone. he gave me a referral to physio and told me that i can continue playing soccer. i was so happy to hear that i didnt have to skip games or anything. he asked if i wanted any sort of pain relief and i said no. (i have since decided that might be a stupid choice cuz it does hurt quite a bit when i do play soccer) anyways, after that i went off to work which was pretty damn boring and i left there feeling like i no longer belong there and dont really have any friends. not the most pleasant feeling in the world, but i was getting to go off to soccer training so i was fine. soccer training just pushed an average day too far towards teh crap side. it hurt to run, hurt to play, and the trend of not passing to me continued, there is one person in particular that like, will not pass to me. it drives me insane. it drove me completely insane, didnt help that i had taken some pain stuff before and it was making me feel a bit out of it (as those things do). i left soccer practice feeling a bit bitter and utterly alone. i mean, there isn't really any friends left at w.b., i'm apparently not making friends with anyone at soccer becuase i got this total feeling of rejection from training today, aside from those two things there's only like 4 people i talk to, and walking up to uni alone in the dark was just horrible. it took a lot of motivation to keep walking all the way home. i was so tempted to just find a nice dark spot and sit and feel sorry for myself and mope and wish that i had friends to hang out with, but i didnt...i made it home and watched lost, which was good. i suck at making/keeping friends.
and to add to it, i'm very confused.
in other news i'm going to physio tomorrow. maybe the physio can give me some pain stuff so i can play on sunday without feeling like a total gimp. yeah. hah...i'm tired. the world is such a strange place and people are so impossible to understand. i mean, really. we can try to understand one another and i s'pose if we ever actually succeed it's probably because we've found our soulmate (yeah, right). we claim to try and understand the way everyone is, i dont think there really is an explanation, tho i'm sure the psychology of it all is fascinating. there's bananas on the table. i'm not a bit fan of bananas. except with brown sugar. mmm...or flambeyed (sp?) i like strawberries. cherrys are good. apples..oranges..pears...mmmm....i really should go to bed, but i have a double-entry journal due tomorrow mornin' bright and early. maybe i'll just do it in class...i'm bloody tired and i highly doubt it would make any sense at this point anyways.
SO out of it. and to think of what a small amount that was! stars are cool
i probably sound like i'm stoned or something. i'm not. i swear it. dont do that crap no more. i need to keep my brain cells..they're going fast enough in other ways.
cheers