so weird to think everyone has a past. k, that sounds lame. but there's so much to people that none of us ever know. i mean, who knows what songs have meanings to other people. even someone that i share a song with might not even remember that song meaning anything. or when i hear a song that for some unknown reason reminds me of a particular moment or feeling, nobody knows...how many other people have associations and such? i mean, there's no way that people don't have feelings and memories that they dont share. just so strange. some people want to act mysterious and show that they ahve some associations, in the hopes that people will ask and they can share their experiences, or remain silent and make everyone want to know and wonder. then there are people who share nothing and dont really make you wonder, they just dont really seem to share. and if you ask those people, you'll usually get the truth, a simple truth, but it's not readily available. then there are those people who will tell anyone who will listen about every experience they've ever had. those people crave attention.
i often find myself telling people stuff that i dont particularly want to be telling them because i feel like i'm saying it to get attention or to get them to think about me a certain way. i hate that. it's not how i want to be, so i'm trying to not talk so much about that stuff. problem with that is that then i turn out to be the quiet one who seems to be trying to act mysterious and get people to ask, which i dont want to be either. such a tough situation.
though i s'pose you can never understand a person if you dont know their past. not to say that you should judge a person by it, or that it defines us. people should live in the present, with how a person is in the present. but you can't actually understand a persons point of view on things or reactions without knowing what experiences they've had and how they grew up and such.
yes, i know it's random.