oh man i'm exhausted. my feet are killing me and i think i'll have no trouble sleeping tonight...i'm also hungry, but that's separate. today at the bar i was pretty bored and such, and sometimes i get a little annoyed with everyone taking the piss out of me. i know that i can be entertaining and sound intelligent when i want to, but i sure wasn't feeling it tonight. i actually just wanted to go home and go to bed. which is what i'm going to do.
i just wanted to comment on the fact that ever since i started at cal, i've found that one of the easiest ways to meet new people and such is to be easy to poke fun at. i always acted like a dork back home and people poked fun at me and then it was easier to talk to them, kinda like an ice breaker. here, being american kinda does that for me, the problem is that when i'm not feeling particularly friendly, i can't respond with jokes or anything and i just start getting tired of always being made fun of for no reason at all. i'm also working at the bar to create a happy medium between being a push-over and doing everything everyone tells me to do, and not doing any work. i really have no problem doing anything around the bar, but i dont want to be too eager about doing stuff cuz then i'll be the easy push-over and i'll end up doing everything and being made fun of behind my back. i think i'm doing a good job of it thus far.
fuck i'm tired
going to bed
i dont think anyone reads this anymore...