i've recently decided that i really like coldplay. i've also decided that there's something wrong with me. i'm scared of hmm...how to describe what it is that i'm afraid of. i dont even know. maybe i'm afraid of feeling anything. maybe i'm afraid of letting anyone feel for me? maybe i'm afraid of everything. see, i cant even think of how to describe it, but it's been pissing me off since i got here. i dont know what i want, in anything. my tooth hurts. man, this was gonna be some insightful post trying to work out what it is thats bothering me, but i'm at such a loss as to what it is that i cant even piece it together by myself. i've gotten fairly used to having someone to at least speculate about these sorts of things with, but not anymore. just myself. i suck!
when i say that these days though, i dont actually believe it, there are just these moments that i wish i could make more sense to myself, aye? anyways. my teeth hurt, i'm going to bed.
too lazy for a picture