oye ve! here comes another of those beautiful posts that doesn't really make any sense. i bet these make people stop reading my blog cuz they cant figure out what im talking about and because they're pretty boring/stupid. too bad!!
i'm grumpy. darin came over yesterday to start attempting to fix my computer, and we got pretty much everything i have on dvds so that it's all there if the computer can't be fixed. the only thing missing is my music, which i'm currently kinda worried about, but it's all on my ipod and i think i can get it from there somehow. next weekend i'm gonna give him my computer or something and the whole operating system is going bye bye, then we'll re-install all of it and hopefully the error message will go away and i wont need to buy a whole new hard disk drive. my god nz tv sucks. if this doesn't work, i've gotta get a new hard disk. how lame is that!!! oh, yeah, and it was working yesterday and i could use AIM and mozilla firefox and itunes, but today it randomly stopped working completely. no funcionado. fucking thing. so now i have no computer til possibly this weekend, possibly til i buy a fucking new hard disk. fucking shit.
alright, lets see..ahhh....so my friend mark, up in auckland had been feeling pretty crappy, and he ended up in the hospital, turns out he's got a tumor. i hope everything turns out okay for him! my thoughts are with you mark!
umm...i'm lonely. i know ive said that before, but it's getting more and more annoying/pronounced. especially now that i have no computer, i cant even watch movies to make myself feel less lonely. my weekends are usualy decent, cuz i work/hang out at curve, and then i sleep most of the day and chill.
i'm also annoyed with myself because i cant help but want a guy to date, or even just to hang out with. wouldn't think there would be anything wrong with that, but i make really stupid choices about such things. like, i dont really know what's going on with boss-man, but i dont really want it to be a dating thing, but i dont know what he thinks so i might be worrying completely unnecessarily. then there's other people, but i'm too retarded to be interested, so i feel like hanging out is leading em on... yeargh!
man i'm pathetic.
while cleaning the showers this morning i was thinking about who i am and why i'm here. obviously, no conclusions reached, but if there was some great purpose to us being here, wouldn't we all end up doing the same thing? i was wondering if we're here for eachother. damn that sounds cheesy. methinks that articulating this thought is not going to make any sense. gah
i give up.
no pics cuz i'm not on my computer. it doesn't work. i don't work.