Ah, yes. One can always tell when I have work to do because I post in my blog = P
it's a great way to procrastinate.
it amazes me that a night can be SO boring and yet for some reason i still managed to stay out til 6:30am. i went to bed as the sun came up. last night was really weird for me. i didnt really want to be there, but leaving just didnt really occur to me. i was definitely not in my crowd. i was hanging out with all the door guys from curve and the neighboring place called sub-9. they're obviously older and stuff and i really didnt fit in. kinda funny to see how much they take the piss outta darin though.
unfortunately for me, when i dont fit in, and feel kinda dumb i start getting all negative and such. kinda sucked, just sat there and felt stupid. specially when they all started taking piss outta the states. i'm here because i dont want to be in the states! people should leave me the fuck alone about that...if i was all go US! then i wouldnt' be here.
damn i have so much to do and i'm tired and i'm sick of trying to understand all this crap and read it. i get so much more work done up on campus, but i cant be bothered to drag my fat ass up the damn hill today.
i miss having physical contact with people. no, that doesn't mean anything sexual at all. i do miss having "someone" to interact with and be comfortable just having fun and stuff. of course i also miss being held and such, but i should get over that soon enough. dude! i've been single for like 5 months or something! holy crap!
man i feel ugly sometimes. sucks ass.
cheers