hideee ho!! the #1 key on my computer is being weird. i'm listening to internet radio. this winamp station is really cool. Jessican simpson may be really, really dumb on newlyweds, but she's a pretty good singer. i wonder if she really is that dumb though. i'm sure if there were tv cameras all over my house and such i'd probably act different, maybe not stupid, but definately different. i dont really have much to say. hilary duff is a crappy singer. dude...i've been having funny conversations with people. i'm on this strange kick about just saying what i'm thinking, i'm tired of hearing people talk shit about eachother and not just say straight out whats bothering them. its especially funny, cuz i usually dont just say what i mean. but i'm trying to just do that, since i've noticed how dumb we are about that sort of thing...must be human nature or something.
i really think the world would make so much more sense if we all just said what was on our minds. yeah, it would be painful sometimes, and we all might have lower self-esteem, but at least we'd know what the hell was going on a bit more often.
meh
i had a strange experience today with some random guy that started talking to me and kind of walked me home. it was really weird and i was as careful as i could be to not flirt, but not be rude either. it was just strange because it made me think about what i look like. i think that's something ihavent' been thinking about much recently, because i realized that i was back to my thinking that i couldn't possibly see how anyone could be interested in talking to me like that. i would love to have conversations with random people....i mean..whatever, ya know? but i felt like he was just making fun of me. especially since the conversation began with such a random super-lame-cheesy pick up line. just strange
wish i had more respect for myself, and high self-esteem, but whatever...i'll deal.
nother random thought: i've felt pretty good the last couple of days. which is especially weird since i haven't taken any of my drugs for like 3 days or something....it's bad for me, but it seems weird to take em when i feel so good...
i'm tired...
off to bed...