Wheeee.....Went and watched the rugby game with 5 people from my marine bio class. There was Snout, Shane, Chris, Rahul (from india), and the other Chris. It was really fun and I learned more about rugby. I'm starting to understand the game a bit more. It's really very much in my uhh..."idiom" to learn all the rules so that I can actually understand the game and discuss it with people much like I do American football (gridiron, as it's called here). I'm gonna miss watching the Cal games. Most of them happen at like 7am or something weird here. I'm gonna try to stay up and catch some of them on live game time or whatever online, but I'm not sure if that'll even be interesting.
I'm quite tired. I wonder if I've picked up any accent. I really want to take more pictures of this area and such so that I can give more of a visual idea of where I'm going and such to those who read this.
I had a revelation today. Something that REALLY REALLY REALLY bothers me. I know I'm pretty hypocritical in saying this, but I'm gonna work on that. Why are people so goddamn judgemental? Everywhere we go, everyone we see, we judge. We judge people on characteristics that have nothing to do with their actual personage. Everything is judged. We can't we just let things be and not decide if they're bad or good, or weird or gay or friendly or right or wrong or pretty or strange-looking or an ass or whatever.....seriously. that's probably half the problem with this fucking world is that we judge everything based on what we expect to see come out of it. just pisses me off.
i feel old.
i also really need to clean my room. i had a good night. i was in a really shitty mood, but i've generally picked up. i will admit, loud and clear, that i'm lonely as fuck here. i've met a bunch of people that i really like hanging out with and that are entertaining, but there's nobody i can really talk to, nobody that will comfort me if i need it, nobody to just call up and hang out when i want to get out of the house or want to go do something different.
This is a record for the longest I've been single since about junior year of high school. i may have mentioned this before, but i've never really been single longer than a couple of months and i think i'm nearly to 5 months. i'm not particularly craving a relationship persay, but i do miss having someone who's there for me, someone who understands me, someone to cuddle with, someone to kiss....someone to give me hugs when i need them. it's a very strange feeling, especially since there aren't exactly any prospects, so i kinda feel like all of my friend who are like "why cant i find anyone", i'm finally in the same boat as everybody else, and i cant say i like it.
I miss sailing.
I miss soccer.
I miss being held.
I miss talking.
I really miss sailing.
I miss Tahoe
yup....that's enough of this post.
and the random picture for the night is....:
enjoy the scenery of the galapagos islands