wow
so i'm 22 now
i had a really good birthday. i got so many calls from friends it was amazing! i dont think i've ever had so many people go out of their way to say happy birthday to me....i felt so incredibly special. = )
thank you to all of you!
on a side note...school kinda sucks, although i have a cool topic for the espm paper now (thanks brian) and i'm gonna start working on the other 25 pager...
oh shit....i just remembered that i have a lab due at midnight tonight...uhhh...shit! oh well
at least i did most of it today in the lab...
other than that....haha...i've been feeling alright
the sailing team seems to be having some minor dramas and it's kinda sad because although some people drive me crazy, i dont care enough to really take sides and discuss stuff....
i get frustrated very easily with people...maybe i'm getting bitter = )
i am feeling the need to be done with school for a while....i want to feel like i'm doing something with my life, not spending all this time sitting in classrooms having teachers talk to me about shit that i'd rather just be doing myself. so i guess i'm gonna be looking for job-type stuff to do next semester...kinda scary to be movin on, but it's that time....
on another note...my mindset is very different than it used to be...i'm not going to go into great detail, but i'm not going to cover myself up...i haven't been....i've been going with impulses (even when i know they're kinda dumb) to figure out what my inner instincts and all that shit are like...
and i've been doing my best to be honest...even sometimes when i shouldn't be honest...unfortunately, all this great thinking doesn't get me out of these nights...like last saturday...when i just kind of feel down...there isn't any particular reason, and i really have no reasons to be feeling down, but i still do...and it's really hard to get motivated to do anything, or talk to people, or do pretty much anything but go to bed....tonight i'm not gonna give in...i'm gonna clean my room and be productive...damn my brain!
my stomach hurts...
good night
stoneyburke is this weekend
party theme: B is for Berkeley (be something starting with B...i wanna be a Barbie)
party is at my house which is way too small for the party and has become a huge stressing block for me and my roomies...oh well
sailing should be good though, as long as it doesn't rain on us
aite...good night = )