well then.....it's like 8:30 on monday night. i've been studying for quite some time now. I kinda have reached the point where i'm not gonna learn anything else,so i'm takin a break, and i may go over it all again later. trouble with taking a break is, there isn't that much else to do just for an hour or so. if i hang with jas or anything, i'll want to stay longer, and i really should go over it all again.
should is such a stupid idea. it means that there's something to do that we dont want to do. one might ask, why do what you dont want to do? i actually do want to finish school. i actually find some of my classes very interesting. finals suck, but they are just something to get over with to continue trying reach something else. when i get out of school, i want to work. either as a teacher, or with some environmental type firm. the classes i'm taking will help me immeasurably if i go into the environmental field like i want to. i know that gpa doesn't mean that much unless you're trying to go to grad school, in which case, most programs require over a 3.0 gpa, which i don't have at the moment, so i'm very much hoping to pull off B's or above in my classes this semester and over summer to try and get my 2.87 above a 3.0. i'm so close!!
grad school seems like a very feasible option, but not right away. i wanna go out and prove to myself that i have marketable skills and can do something that i enjoy. i also enjoy researching, and grad school is a good opportunity for that sort of thing, as well as maybe teaching undergrads.
its weird, i'm almost looking forward to summer being kinda quiet, seeing if i can do well in classes if i actually study. i'm interested in knowing a bit more about my potential.