well......i hate headaches. i really hate cold sores...really, really, really, really hate them. especialy with a big solo in symphony since it tends to hurt to play...fuck. i've been practicing so much....i thought i was really careful about putting on my chapstick all weekend, but apparantly not...damnit...
i've got class today, then i'm working on the problem set until 12 only since i have a doctors appt. at 1. grrrrrrr.....
maybe after that i'll just go to bed....then i have conducting, gonna be really shy with this stupid thing on my lip....fuck
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i'm beginning to think that no matter how much i want it to not be the case, maybe i should just be given up on. i try, but i'm not good enough.....i dont really know what else i can do.....