tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52283052012-01-05T11:27:20.031+13:00Wow! I do think!!Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.comBlogger2601100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-59315534525903255462012-01-02T15:11:00.002+13:002012-01-02T15:34:22.008+13:00Haha. I had assumed that when i was convalescing after my surgery I would find time to ramble on in my blog again. Obviously, that didn't quite turn out to be the case... I think that's partially because the internet doesn't work in my bedroom and partially because i didn't really have anything to say other than 'i'm bored' and 'fuck this hurts'...On a side note, i'm still torn as to whether or Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-44752605304237773542011-10-24T19:32:00.002+13:002011-10-24T20:17:50.829+13:00Survived the futsal tournament. Was an incredibly frustrating weekend, lost the first game to a team that was nowhere near as good as us. Then Karori stacked their team and beat us so we ended up 3rd in our pool which meant we couldn't win the tournament. We did manage to win the "Plate" which is 5th place, but we got a cup for it so I can't complain too much. I do have to say that the way the Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-76488974053713185552011-10-19T20:09:00.002+13:002011-10-19T20:41:21.311+13:00It's been over a year since I have even looked at this! To be honest, I feel like I have actually grown up in that time. Well, not completely, I will never grow up completely, that would be no fun! In evidence of my 'grown-up-ness', I am actually not writing about silly boys or any of that stuff. However, I do find myself sitting at home eating an ice cream wishing I had someone close to me that Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-44774781485817720122010-04-11T16:30:00.002+12:002010-04-11T16:37:34.036+12:00i have that feeling like i might explode soon from all sorts of random frustrations building up. first off, i feel like a ridiculous 16 year old girl in some old school romantic book who pines away after some boy who doesn't even know she exists. it's really really frustrating!!! mostly because i spend so much stupid time alone at the moment i think about it way too much and then i can't stop Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-67962525466395955712010-03-24T20:32:00.002+13:002010-03-24T20:51:37.522+13:00So I'm sitting at my new flat in NZ and my flatmate and his friends had a communal cooking dinner night thing. I am SO jealous. Like, I got home and most of them were in the kitchen working on making garlic bread and salad and mussels with a garlic and tomato sauce. Phenomenal. So not only am I feeling mildly lonely at the moment, but even the friends I have don't do this sort of thing, where Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-91987946310493541142009-11-25T23:19:00.002+13:002009-11-25T23:19:48.230+13:00so i totally just realized that i probably don't have a single friend here who would even imagine me being the way i was at home...just kind of a strange thought..Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-36349033927775516432009-11-25T22:21:00.003+13:002009-11-25T22:47:51.750+13:00I'm overwhelmed. And going to type tonight as though nobody reads this. I think I just need to get some stuff out of my head.So I'm moving away from New Zealand. My room is about 80% packed and I leave in 9 days. Going back to San Fran for 20 hours and then flying down to Argentina to hike around in Patagonia and go on a cruise down to Antarctica. I'm really looking forward to the adventures to Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-48833312906546303792009-08-31T21:31:00.003+12:002009-08-31T21:35:47.083+12:00oh man. every few months i just seem to need to have one of those weekends where i can pretend to be an angsty teenager again and rant on about shit. a few days later i always look back and am embarassed/amused by my own writings...as a side note, that last post was written after a few drinks at home on my own, sadly, the same issues were raised by me at a social function, also involving a few Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-89461585797784241402009-08-28T22:31:00.002+12:002009-08-28T22:54:36.112+12:00does anyone else feel like facebook gets in the way of real social interaction? i always told myself that facebook was a way to see what friends at home were up to, and to kind of see what was going on around New Zealand with the people I've met. But now I'm starting to realize that people you've met 2-3 times will friend you, and then what they know about you is based on what your facebook Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-51880003084138368832009-01-02T22:56:00.003+13:002009-01-02T23:35:21.331+13:00i honestly believe that NOBODY still reads this cuz it's been nearly a year since i wrote in it. but it's weird...i used to think that people read it to see what was going on with me. that is obvious on facebook these days, so i might as well write about how i feel about the things that go on with me these days. i also realized that, while people from back in the day might look at this simply to Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-82152332081456724022007-09-12T11:12:00.000+12:002007-09-12T11:25:33.876+12:00Sometimes I hate being me. I just get so depressed and worked up over absolutely nothing. It really sucks. It's like I feel like I'm walking this really thin line and if I'm not careful I'll step over it and everyone will classify me as psycho or crazy or something. Things are just so complicated and I'm trying to just enjoy the present and ignore all the doubts and questions in my mind, but whenTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-78048434710236864732007-08-22T16:14:00.000+12:002007-08-22T16:23:02.986+12:00Been a bit depressed lately. I've moved into my new flat. I like it, my room is nice and cozy, especially now that I have a dresser and a bed and my posters up on the walls.as for things with andy, they've gone a bit complicated. we still hang out a lot, i sleep over there a couple times a week, so i s'pose we're sort of together still, but with no real strings and apparently no future, which Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-74224057040994892372007-07-30T16:58:00.000+12:002007-07-30T17:17:19.822+12:00ahhh...i keep meaning to post, but the enormity of all the stuff going on in my life keeps stopping me. i'm trying to to let myself worry about anything or get sad or whatever and i knew that writing in here would cause that to happen. now i think i'll be okay doing it, plus if anyone ever reads this, i s'pose i should keep it at least semi-updated...my collarbone is healing slowly, still in a Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-79382985757504438942007-06-27T13:28:00.000+12:002007-06-27T13:32:09.821+12:00just thought i should mention in here that i'm broken now. i managed to break my collarbone at my game on sunday, had surgery monday where they put a big metal plate in with a bunch of screws to stick it all back together. i'll try to post some pictures and stuff a bit later. i will say that its super frustrating trying to do everything one-handed and with just my left hand. also surprisingly Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-67216479829335970032007-06-19T12:26:00.000+12:002007-06-19T12:43:25.289+12:00Sometimes I hate movies and popular music.I'm up at uni, sitting in the computer lab with my papers spread out all over the place trying to work out the methods for my next 3-4 experiments and the next 3 months or so, and I'm listening to my ipod. Like half of the songs that come on have to do with humans having close bonds with one another and trusting each other and thinking about eachother andTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-9620040422915279872007-05-28T17:26:00.000+12:002007-05-28T17:35:54.214+12:00i s'pose i should write a little something. been doing better the last few days, also had some strange realizations.when i was growing up, i always felt like there was something special about me, like i used more of my brain than other kids or something. i know this sounds weird, but i really felt like when i put my mind to it, i could accomplish nearly anything. i always knew i was going to growTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-47042390473679894962007-05-16T16:15:00.000+12:002007-05-16T16:32:55.318+12:00I tried to post the other day, but I just couldn't think of anything to write, I was totally fed up with how boring and blase my life was. I still think I haven't been particularly interesting lately, but I had some ideas and some time so I figured I'd write a bit.My dad's been sick lately, he went into the hospital Saturday morning (i think). Some intestinal problem and he was really weak and Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-42237256835596832082007-05-07T21:25:00.000+12:002007-05-07T21:38:24.575+12:00Why does everything have to cost money? There's just so much I want to do with myself, to do with my youthful sprightley-ness, but I can't afford any of it. I love rock climbing but I can't afford to go more than like, once in a blue moon. I love kayaking, tramping, sailing, diving...all sorts of stuff like that. I just can't.I want to go sailing, but it's $100 to join and then I think it's like Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-40985906617732643892007-05-02T10:10:00.000+12:002007-05-02T10:28:40.924+12:00So this morning I woke up at about 5:30am to this really weird water dripping sound. I nudged Andy who woke up with a start and switched on the light to reveal water pouring through every space in our brick wall. Our wall was kinda like a waterfall dripping onto his stereo. Like action heroes, we then jump out of bed, move the stereo table and get up to turn on the room light. More light reveals Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-60446151595790780912007-04-26T14:00:00.000+12:002007-04-26T14:11:39.121+12:00So I've returned unharmed from my train trip/anemone collecting. Thanks to flatmate duane I only had to walk back from the train station with my shovel, and I definitely found that to be a fun experience. Well, fun as in thought-provoking. I kept wondering what everyone was thinking as they walked by. I don't often walk around the business part of town during the day, but it's kind of weird. LotsTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-26901647006206978692007-04-26T09:22:00.000+12:002007-04-26T09:27:15.052+12:00Today I'm off to do something that scares the bejesus out of me for no reason. I'm going anemone collecting, but I'm taking the train to do so and going by myself. Going by myself scares me a little just cuz it's kinda lonely wading around in the shit-smelling mud and I already have enough motivation problems with collecting. I'm more afraid of taking the train. I've only taken the train once Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-83144220092995325792007-04-24T17:25:00.000+12:002007-04-24T17:38:05.453+12:00So I've sort of realized that I'm, unfortunately, not one of those people who can just simply go through my life and be happy. I think I get bored with things too easily, and I get unhappy when things in my life don't interest me and don't challenge me. Thus, I've realized that I need to get out and make myself happy. I need to be more proactive in my own life. Doesn't really seem like that much Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-48528256546230212792007-04-19T16:16:00.000+12:002007-04-19T16:31:28.015+12:00It's been a couple weeks.I had my fancy waxing done, fucking painful. She started by doing the "brazilian" bit of it, saying that it's better to get it over with. In hindsight, I completely agree with her, though it certainly wasn't pleasant. Let's just rip out every bit of hair on some very very sensitive skin... Afterwards it sure looked nice though. Then came the legs, I wasn't paying Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-11071422152461486372007-04-03T14:11:00.000+12:002007-04-03T14:26:55.914+12:00Oh my goodness, I have to rant and rave.I finally used my voucher for a facial and massage that I got from Andy for christmas. Why did I wait so long!!! I could get addicted to doing that. I love being pampered. It makes me feel beautiful and important and cared for. Like, someone spending 45 minutes just rubbing my back and making me feel so nice was just amazing. I've had various sorts of Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-31535459650243855542007-03-29T10:46:00.000+12:002007-03-29T11:03:27.321+12:00Ya know, I have days when I absolutely love my situation. Days when I like living in Wellington and I feel good about myself and I like my job and going to school and stuff, but then I have days like today when I hate my situation. I don't like waiting for stuff up at uni, I don't like depending on other people for my uni stuff, and I don't like not being able to find information that I feel likeTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-9678152675151065952007-03-15T14:33:00.000+13:002007-03-15T14:52:04.527+13:00I went fishing last Saturday. It was really really fun. I caught lots and lots of fishies and even got brave enough to take the hooks out of them myself!I've actually been having a really good week. Currently having an extreme moment of boredom. Trying to work out how to order all sorts of stuff for our lab and sort out the instruction manual for one of our machines and run my experiments and Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-17481683773386746972007-03-08T08:42:00.000+13:002007-03-08T08:56:46.190+13:00Writing things down seems to make it easier to do them somehow.I've been quite depressed lately, just feeling bad about myself and how I look and how I deal with people and various factes of my life. I'm not motivated to do my school-work and I have trouble just dealing with simple jokes and such from friends. It's stupid and it's not what I'm really like. I really dislike being like this. Last Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-16006473770533005322007-02-27T18:09:00.000+13:002007-02-27T18:15:16.075+13:00Ahhh.... not much to say besides the fact that I've been feeling pretty down lately. I don't actually know that there's any particular cause, i think it's the combination of being in one place for a long time, never sleeping well, being myself and being a bit of an attention whore. Also not having many friends or people to talk to. I'm not really sure what to do, I don't even feel like I could Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-79217728700481579902007-02-22T08:59:00.000+13:002007-02-22T09:11:19.029+13:00And then it was mid-February...My parents arrived in NZ on the 31st of Jan. We went down to the South Island and did the Milford Track (a very famous hiking trail). It was absolutely beautiful with stunning views and so far from civilization one could almost forget about the real world. Really annoying sandflies however. Milford is in Fiordland and is well-known for the views, but also for the Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-38543432720680510182007-01-15T15:27:00.000+13:002007-01-15T15:37:13.374+13:00Oh my. Once again...it's been a while. Nothing's really changed except for the year. My Christmas was okay, kinda boring and strange to not have any family of my own. New Years was very boring, but better than sitting on a boat and going to bed at 12:20am. Went to the club Andy was doing lights for, then worked at Curve for a couple hours, then went back to that club til about 6am, then left and Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1165630290669690842006-12-09T14:55:00.000+13:002006-12-09T15:11:30.686+13:00SOOooooo...it's now December. Haven't posted in here since October. Lots has happened. Well, actually, nothing has really happened. Still living on Taranaki St with the boy, still working too much at bagels and being paid too little, still playing with anemones and getting frustrated with them. Yup.My parents are currently in Mexico, my supervisor is in Antarctica, my brain seems to have gotten Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1161320690273393752006-10-20T17:56:00.000+13:002006-10-20T18:04:50.290+13:00So when I was growing up, I always thought that I only wanted 1 kid because of how much I enjoyed my childhood. I knew growing up that I was an only child and that "only child syndrome" existed and such. I worked hard to avoid being selfish and spoiled and such. I think I did a pretty good job of it. I think I've decided now that I should have more than one kid. Mainly because now I find that Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1160359582124088212006-10-09T15:03:00.000+13:002006-10-09T15:06:22.123+13:00Another thought, I always start worrying a lot when I sense that there is too much of me actually invested in a relationship or anything. Maybe that's my problem. I'm scared. For someone who's been in several long-term relationships, you'd think I wouldn't be a commitment-phobe, but even though there's no new commitment here or anything, I'm afraid. I don't want to get hurt.Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1160359048868059132006-10-09T14:49:00.000+13:002006-10-09T14:57:28.903+13:00I hate being sick. I went to work this morning, but I really didn't feel good. I had really hoped Andy would bring my nurofen which I forgot because one of the main annoying things is the headache that doesn't want to go away. It didn't come. Being me, I then worried about whether or not he had made it out of bed and off to work. I worry too much. I worry when I care. It's really annoying Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1160003939200336882006-10-05T12:14:00.000+13:002006-10-05T12:18:59.216+13:00I say this every year, and if you look I probably wrote something similar last year, but birthdays can kind of suck. I mean, I s'pose it's my own fault and such, but I always feel like I'm so lonely and alone on my birthday. It's weird since I've gotten 4-5 happy birthday texts already today, which actually surprised me a lot! I guess I've got nothing to complain about. I got to sleep in, i get Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1159834091200893392006-10-03T12:54:00.000+13:002006-10-03T13:08:11.226+13:00I wonder how much of the world will never realize that there's more to life than what they dabble in? I'd say the majority of people concern themselves %60 with how they look and %35 with how they get through each day and the remaining %5 is to contemplate the whole world, if they feel so inclined. We're just very self-absorbed. I'm not trying to say that i'm any different, simply that we don't Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1159686451799395452006-10-01T20:03:00.000+13:002006-10-01T20:07:31.823+13:00Yo yo.Boring weekend. Saturday we went rock climbing, it's been so long since I've been. It was just as fun as I remember it, and I don't seem to have gotten a whole lot worse since I haven't been going. Duane (flatmate) got this new PS2 game that Andy played a lot on Saturday and then his bro came over on Sat night and that was the entertainment for the evening. Tracy (flatmate) had friedns overTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1159394312980766122006-09-28T09:41:00.000+12:002006-09-28T09:58:32.996+12:00I'm aliiiiiiive!!! So it's been a while. What have I been up to?Well.I'm still living with Andy. It's going well. They've started construction on the new apartment building next door, and they start nice and early every weekday, so even when I don't have work I can't sleep in. It's kind of cool though watching a building appear from the ground up. The site had been delayed for building because Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1155278866369529702006-08-11T18:44:00.000+12:002006-08-11T18:47:46.380+12:00my god i make stupid stupid decisions!!Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1155266369010518832006-08-11T15:08:00.001+12:002006-08-11T15:19:29.023+12:00I'm not really sure what to do with myself these days. I think that mainly because I have no real friends anymore, I feel almost neglected. I'm beginning to wonder if moving in was a good idea. I mean, I really enjoy having someone to sleep next to and such, but it's so easy to feel unappreciated and taken for granted. I also think I'm not so good at living with someone who has lots of bad habitsTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1154995158415344242006-08-08T11:53:00.000+12:002006-08-08T11:59:18.426+12:00Yeah, I'm bored. And frustrated.For my thesis, I have all this research I'm supposed to be getting started, but I'm missing little bits and I'm unsure about what to do about it all. I need to go anemone collecting, but the weather sucks, the tides are at crappy times, and it's hard to organize. Unfortunately, it's looking as though I can't start the next step until I go. Lame! Also unfortunately,Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1153347374489767102006-07-20T10:04:00.000+12:002006-07-20T10:16:14.566+12:00Once again, it's been a wee while. I'm only posting now cuz 1-i'm bored and 2-i feel like writing my new-ish revelations! sort of. First off, update: Today I'm finally getting my coffee training for work. Means I get to make coffees for people and put barista skills on my resume, also means I get a pay raise, and more of a challenge at my not-so difficult job. Good stuff. I also have my second Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1151641530404396222006-06-30T16:24:00.000+12:002006-06-30T16:25:30.416+12:00Wow. So I've been busy (not really) and kinda forgot about this thing, but now I'm really bored and kinda have a lot of random stuff on my mind so I figure I'll tap somethin' out. Good way to waste time.Update:Uhhh...classes are over. I'm living with Andy with 2 other flatmates, one is really cool and the other seemed cool but has been acting a bit odd lately. We'll see. That's all going pretty Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1149128524210924732006-06-01T14:19:00.000+12:002006-06-01T14:22:04.210+12:00oh right. and i've been out of soccer for 3 weeks now i think. i went to the physio today and i've got 2 more games that i'll be missing for sure. But I get to try to go running. Only 20 min, and flat, but it's running! it's physical activity!! Then wed. after next I get to go to training!! then the game after that I might get to play in!!! I sure hope I can and that the running thing goes well. Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1149128264167749022006-06-01T14:06:00.000+12:002006-06-01T14:17:44.180+12:00Hello Hello! I'm alive. Figured it's time for an update.Today I finished class. Forever. (assuming i pass my 2 classes) All that's left is my bug collection and my plant collection. I've got about 15 plants, so I need about 10 more and just need to I.D., label, and stick them on herbarium paper. Not too worried about that. The bug collection will not be complete when I turn it in because I Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1147249281917055842006-05-10T20:02:00.000+12:002006-05-10T20:21:21.930+12:00hmm...so, would it be better to sit here and puzzle out what the hell caused that sort of reaction from me? or just say "it happened, it's in the past" and hope it doesn't happen again? really bothered me for some reason. very strange.anyways...update.physio thinks the leg thing is where the hamstring muscle attaches to the bone. guestimated i'll be out of soccer for 4-6 weeks. i'm hoping for 4 Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1146482858480526952006-05-01T23:10:00.000+12:002006-05-01T23:27:38.496+12:00I hate Mondays. I know I've never really mentioned mondays before, but they really are the bane of my existence. I don't think it's because it's the beginning of the week, I just think they're always a horrible day. Work on Mondays is usually fine and I never really start hating them until the evening. I somehow end up always feeling lonely. It's like, it always hits me that I'm here in another Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1146050549248583092006-04-26T23:09:00.000+12:002006-04-26T23:22:29.260+12:00having a bit of a blah day. got up this mornin' went up to uni to feed my lovely anemones. did that, went to the comp lab to print these articles and found out that the printer wasn't working. meh, got some coffee, went across the street and printed the stuff. then i got all brave and went over to student health and had a doctors appointment to figure out what's been hurting in my leg/butt area. Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1145855995384574072006-04-24T17:02:00.000+12:002006-04-24T17:19:55.393+12:00i had a thought...i often go off on rants about how much humanity is lacking in the world and how stupid everyone is. that's because they piss me off. i still think there's SO much missing and there are SO many stupid people, but i just kind of thought i should say that i appreciate those few people out there who aren't complete retards. it's really nice when it's possible to have a conversation Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1145827752128777652006-04-24T09:00:00.000+12:002006-04-24T09:29:12.160+12:00wow. so i've had quite an interesting few days. lets see: on thursday morning andy and i left for taupo to have a vacation. thursday we went to our hotel, went to huka falls which was really cool. there is a LOT of water flowing down those. We also went for a mini-hike down to this inlet stream that is naturally hot water. It's so weird to walk up and see steam coming out of the plants. after Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1145361265867534542006-04-18T23:52:00.000+12:002006-04-18T23:54:25.866+12:00haven't done a word list in a long time:painfearhopelovedoubtrainsadnesslostlonelysmilingsillythoughtsbrainstupidneverissuesbloody hellTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1145360969240885112006-04-18T23:34:00.000+12:002006-04-18T23:49:29.253+12:00So I've always said that the biggest downfall of the "blog" is the fact that anyone can read it. People can read it and take offense at what you say, they can get mad at you for things you say, they can judge you for things you say, and they can hate you. True that they can also respect you. I originally started this blog, and gave it the title "wow! i do think" because at the time i felt that Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1144734084369344302006-04-11T17:32:00.000+12:002006-04-11T17:41:24.380+12:00dude. so i think like 2 posts ago i mentioned that i had a goal for soccer. that i would be the player of the week in lukes email. well i got honorable mention for this week. i just had to post that to prove that i'm making progress. the player of the game was the girl who scored all three of our girls even though she was hungover. very impressive for her = ) i got honorable mention along with joTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1144721637736262902006-04-11T13:54:00.000+12:002006-04-11T14:13:57.766+12:00i've been homesick recently. doesn't really make any sense since there's not much at home that i actually miss. like, i haven't seen my parents in a while, but i dont miss them that much. there aren't really any people that i specifically miss all the time. there are food places that i miss dearly. my god i want in-n-out!! and cheap chinese, and west coast cheesy-sticks....wah! last night i was Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1144053076487598102006-04-03T20:10:00.000+12:002006-04-03T20:31:17.143+12:00Why can't someone else tell me what I'm thinking? Why do I keep having these moments when I don't really know what I'm thinking? I know it's all stress related and that my mindset is totally not set for this school thing. This week isn't really that bad. Just have the manuscript review due tomorrow morning and an essay and presentation on thursday morning. The manuscript review is mostly done, Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1143521107241311622006-03-28T16:00:00.000+12:002006-03-28T16:45:07.253+12:00wow, i've been productive for a whole 40 minutes straight. i need a mini mind break. plus i sort of felt like typing and i'm not typing with my reading. i like the song "angels" by robbie williams. obviously i have to be int he proper mood for it, but it's good to read and do work to cuz i dont get real into it, but it's nice to have in teh background. lets see...last posted on thurday and Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1143107038310359612006-03-23T21:18:00.000+12:002006-03-23T21:43:58.376+12:00i really dont know that i can do this thing. it's so strange, but i'm terrified of so many things. and there's just these random-ass little tiny things that totally make me freak out, even though i really really dont want to. i hope i'm not tormenting anyone. i think i also really need someone i can talk to. someone i can actually be honest to. there isn't anybody. there are a couple people who Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1142850029292080192006-03-20T21:53:00.000+12:002006-03-20T22:20:29.303+12:00"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything"k, so for some reason i had always thought the quote was 'its only after you have nothing that you're free to do anything' just watched fight club and sort of realized that its important to include the word 'lost'. Lost implies that you're not actively getting rid of what you've got, it's when things have gone, without Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1142470657585201392006-03-16T13:46:00.000+13:002006-03-16T13:57:37.600+13:00ah, well, it's Thursday afternoon and I'm up at campus trying to waste time until the lab portion of my biodiversity class. We have to do an insect collection and a plant collection, so the lab part is where they show us how and we can get help. I've caught 1 bug. = P I haven't gone to one of these yet, so I figure I prolly should. Anywho, I've survived this week so far.Tuesday night, the 5K fun Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1142246765468080282006-03-13T23:27:00.000+13:002006-03-13T23:46:05.483+13:00Bloody life! Always full of twists and turns! Lets see...my weekend was fairly uneventful. Friday night I went to bed nice and early. Saturday watched some dragonboating with Andy then went and worked on teh boat, it's almost done!! All we gotta do is get lines and some deck hardware and then stick it all back togther and then sailing!! SAILING!!!Saturday night was Bhangra at the bar. There were Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1141700163658187112006-03-07T15:51:00.000+13:002006-03-07T15:56:03.666+13:00it's tuesday afternoon! my presentation is done! yay! it went absolutely horribly, but it's over and there's nothing i can do about it now. now i have a paper to read for thursday and 2 for next week, but i'll take my time with them. other than that i have soccer tomorrow night, work tomorrow during the day, and i think i have to go up to my lab at night and stick my anemones in the refridgeratorTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1141547512951315312006-03-05T21:14:00.000+13:002006-03-05T21:31:52.963+13:00My goodness! What a crazy weekend! So the dive trip got cancelled, I spent most of saturday with Andy, hanging out and chillin'. Didn't get a whole lot done on my presentation, but did get a couple slides done. Saturday night was OB1 (a House/Hard house DJ from Auckland) at the bar. It hadn't been well publicised, so I expected it to be empty and such, but there were a good number of people thereTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1141454092547456512006-03-04T19:17:00.000+13:002006-03-04T19:34:52.560+13:00dude. my dive trip got cancelled. i've done so much planning around teh damn trip that it totally fucks me off that it's cancelled, but it's really not safe to go diving in 10 meter swells, so i s'pose it makes sense. the weather was pretty gnarly today. super windy and freezing cold so it's better not to go, but planning this was difficult dont know when i'll get another chance.this fucking Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1141177970270758772006-03-01T14:39:00.000+13:002006-03-01T14:52:50.283+13:00my god, it's only day #2 of school for me and i'm already feeling the pressure. well, not really so bad, but i do have a lot of stuff to do. hope my brain can remain organised enough for me to keep track of it all. so my next week:6-8 tonight, soccer trainingthursday:9-11 biodiversity11:30-4:30 Wholly Bagelsfriday:11-5 Wholly Bagelssaturday:diving all day10pm-6am Curve lamenesssunday:2-soccer Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1141026126322392342006-02-27T20:24:00.000+13:002006-02-27T20:42:06.333+13:00so weird to think everyone has a past. k, that sounds lame. but there's so much to people that none of us ever know. i mean, who knows what songs have meanings to other people. even someone that i share a song with might not even remember that song meaning anything. or when i hear a song that for some unknown reason reminds me of a particular moment or feeling, nobody knows...how many other Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1140943752570642862006-02-26T21:34:00.000+13:002006-02-26T21:49:12.580+13:00oh-eight hundred eighty three eight three eight three. the pizza hut number!i feel very lost right now. school starts, i feel like i dont know what i'm doing with myself, in terms of school, work, friends, purpose....not that i really want my whole purpose in life figured out, but i would really like to not feel like i'm just floating. i mean. the last week or so has been very strange.done some Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1140010410644804252006-02-16T02:32:00.000+13:002006-02-16T02:33:30.656+13:00Oye. Ever have one of those nights when stuff seems right but not? Yeah, this was one of those. I was with awesome people, doing fun things, and yet I just couldn't get into it. I really did have a good time though.Tired nowmust sleep.must be at work in 6 hours..yay!Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1139981113918632942006-02-15T18:18:00.000+13:002006-02-15T18:25:13.930+13:00anyone else ever feel like they just need a hug? i'm not feeling down or lonely or anything, i could just really use a hug. tonight...i'm going out with 2 girls from work! i also realized i've never really gone out to bars/clubs and such with girls before. i mean, anne and i went out, but that's not really a group, nor was it with local kiwi people. i've gone out with a couple girls and guys, butTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1139825827248958432006-02-13T23:03:00.000+13:002006-02-13T23:17:07.260+13:00ah well. i cannot believe valentines day is tomorrow. not that i'm all that upset/worried or anything about not having a "valentine" but that means it's like, halfway through february. i've almost been here 8 months. my goodness it's insane!i figured out part of the MAC thing which is just good for my mental health = Pi worked on the boat yesterday, we've got all the paint off the hull and used Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1139457696474966862006-02-09T16:36:00.000+13:002006-02-09T17:01:36.486+13:00Oh dear. This road back could be even longer than getting back in shape in the normal sense of the word. getting back in shape meanings running and doing crunches and stuff. in the sense i mean now, it means playing and playing while sounding like complete shit and making people hear me...and figuring out how to make reeds and finding some music to play that makes me enjoy it again...maybe find Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1139378791253874572006-02-08T18:50:00.000+13:002006-02-08T19:06:31.270+13:00Ya know...I'm mostly an optimist..for myself, but outwardly I tend to be a pessimist. I think that's because i dont really believe in humans and I just want a hero. Someone to prove me wrong. Someone to prove that humanity is in fact humane, has feelings, and can actually be caring and such... Sorry, I was just listening to a song that vaguely made me think of such things. Why can't people prove Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1139307626328447532006-02-07T23:14:00.000+13:002006-02-07T23:20:26.340+13:00woo! i've been running! i ran about 3 miles today. yes, i know that's nothing compared with what i did in the past, but that's the past. i'm working to get back in shape. i also did crunches and stuff cuz i wanna have a nice stomach again, and i did some leg stuff from way back in the day to get my legs stronger, and also so that i can be nice and fast at sprinting. makes me feel much more Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1138873087473472902006-02-02T22:24:00.000+13:002006-02-02T22:38:07.520+13:00I can't believe it's February! Really. It's amazing. I've been here 7 months and counting. Never been away from the States for so long before. I've had such a great week. From Saturday (The day of kayaking and such) it's just been good. Sunday I didn't do much. Kinda hung around and relaxed. Monday I worked and then went running at night. I felt so awesome after I'd gone running, I was lying in Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1138486063512149392006-01-29T10:55:00.000+13:002006-01-29T11:07:43.523+13:00Ahhh...well, it's been a lovely few days. My 7-month monaversary of being here passed, quite unremarkably. I worked a decent amount at wholly bagles this week, my day off was kinda cloudy, but I bought some new jeans. I really like them cuz they're just chill, not too tight or anything, but they're not saggy or anything. quite comfortable. worked at bagels on friday, had a nap and went to work atTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1138086116838352742006-01-24T19:50:00.000+13:002006-01-24T20:01:56.850+13:00ah, i like rain. i had to go up to uni to fee my damn anemones and i decided to wander up there in the rain barefoot. for some reason, wearing shoes in the rain has always seemed really strange to me. i mean, they just get wet..what's the point? well, i almost pulled it off today. i wonder what it is that always gets to me and ruins my plans...i'm such a goofball. a silly, rather stupid Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137666641513349732006-01-19T23:29:00.000+13:002006-01-19T23:30:41.523+13:00wow. i really am a horrible, selfish person. i strangely like high heels and wearing a dress.Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137569684282825852006-01-18T19:13:00.000+13:002006-01-18T20:34:44.316+13:00k, disclaimer: this post is not meant to be deep or anything. it's a collection of random quotes that i like.*If you want to make an apple pie from scratch, you must first create the universe. Carl Sagan *Reflect on your present blessings, of which every man has many; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.Charles Dickens *A person who trusts no one can't be trusted.Jerome Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137404890865943722006-01-16T22:31:00.000+13:002006-01-16T22:48:10.916+13:00Okay. Not as confident as my last post. I have some things I want to say...god knows if i'll actually get through them since i tend to get add and forget what i want to say here, but whatever. 1-i've been relatively depressed lately. i have 2 possible reasons for this, one being living alone (though i dont think that's it) the only reason i might suspect that is because last time i lived alone Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137304982320451002006-01-15T18:57:00.000+13:002006-01-15T19:03:02.330+13:00i can do this!!! my way! me!! damn the rest of it all!!!! i rule the world!Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137279787323914142006-01-15T11:38:00.000+13:002006-01-15T12:03:07.336+13:00I wonder if everyone has mornings when they just wake up and feel like they can't get out of bed, feel like they dont have the energy or motivation to get dressed, to leave the house, to eat. wait...this sounds really bad. hmmm....ya know. in a way i miss home. although i'm not sure if i miss home or actually having friends that care about me. i mean, am i just so incredibly used to having a boy Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1137140554408884982006-01-13T20:52:00.000+13:002006-01-13T21:22:34.423+13:00oye ve. here we are. in the lovely game of life. struggling to keep our heads above it all, and trying to enjoy it as best we can in the process. Is it more important to simply enjoy oneself, or to do the things that make us unhappy and do our best to enjoy them? Should we work to become better people, or just enjoy being shallow and never worrying about self-improvement? how much stock should weTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1136799049889179522006-01-09T21:59:00.000+13:002006-01-09T22:30:50.033+13:00today i went out to the victoria university marine lab for the first time. crazy isn't it, i've been here doing marine biology for 6 months and today was the first time i've been over there. it's a really really cool place. there's all these labs, and a bunch of diving gear, and some boats, and a ute, and it's just so cool! plus i got to ride there on a motorcycle! rahul needed to put out Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1136633086099163602006-01-08T00:20:00.000+13:002006-01-08T00:24:46.110+13:00oh man i'm exhausted. my feet are killing me and i think i'll have no trouble sleeping tonight...i'm also hungry, but that's separate. today at the bar i was pretty bored and such, and sometimes i get a little annoyed with everyone taking the piss out of me. i know that i can be entertaining and sound intelligent when i want to, but i sure wasn't feeling it tonight. i actually just wanted to go Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1136371686822240042006-01-04T23:43:00.000+13:002006-01-04T23:48:06.833+13:00hahaha....so last time that i posted, i was peeved about something and now i'm just laughing about it. i was just stressed and such. i just had to say that there was a reason, and it was fucking hilarious. i'm really tired so i'm headed to bed now....i'm jealous of the people back in cali all going snowboarding up at Tahoe. The bastards!! I really really miss snowboarding, especially up in tahoe Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1136197838715757042006-01-02T22:36:00.000+13:002006-01-02T23:30:38.783+13:00It's January 2, 2006. 2006 doesn't seem weird at all to write. I wonder if it's because everything seems so discombobulated in my head that changing the year seems aboslutely normal. I just got back from my x-mas and new years with my parents. They're here for another couple of days and then they head back to the states. First thing to say is that it's good to see them. 6 months is the longest Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1136190978598110392006-01-02T21:34:00.000+13:002006-01-02T21:36:18.610+13:00Later tonight, hopefully there will be a long post all about my x-mas and new year and the stuff on my mind and all that good stuff. i just wanted to say that i like REM, i need a bubble bath, i need friends, i'm looking forward to work tomorrow, i'm peeved at several things...more on all that later though = )cheersand happy new year everyone.Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1135324677763810552005-12-23T20:44:00.000+13:002005-12-23T20:57:57.773+13:00oh my! i'm getting stuff done! it's craziness.i finally did the disgusting, stinky, yeasty dishes that were in my sink. I threw out all of the old stuff from my refrigerator, I took out the trash, wiped down the counter, I'm halfway through cleaning up the living room, i still need to clean my room and do some laundry, but that's not a huge deal. i think i'm all set for x-mas dinner. final menu: Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1135233654871754052005-12-22T19:25:00.000+13:002005-12-22T19:40:54.886+13:00i just went up to feed my anemones. i just had to mention something i saw yesterday. it was a car. a car with antlers. the most adorable plush antlers, one out each of the front windows. as if that wasn't holiday-ish enough, it had a little red nose attached on the front grill. the most adorable thing ever!! I am VERY proud of myself. I've been such a good girl about taking care of my anemones! ITiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1135226356831740162005-12-22T17:30:00.000+13:002005-12-22T17:39:16.843+13:00MY FEEEEEEET!!!!!it's funny. working at wholly bagels is so much nicer than working at the gym but i work longer hours and my feet are now killing me! i started work at 8:30 this morning and got stuck there til 5pm!Ow! I got two breaks to sit, but it's still a long time to spend on my feet. i didnt fuck up as much as i did on monday, but i still did a few times. still learning...i can't believe Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134900985400186632005-12-18T22:54:00.000+13:002005-12-18T23:16:25.490+13:00it is sunday night.i dont have to get up at 5am tomorrow morning!! i'm also really tired, but i dont have to worry much about getting to sleep early. I do have to go into the bar tomorrow to do the stock-take and some other stuff.I went to bed at 8am this morning. last night was not the best gig ever. the music was REALLY hard house. I've gotten used to pretty hard house and can just tune it out,Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134609575149041642005-12-15T13:57:00.000+13:002005-12-15T14:19:35.160+13:00haha...what a boring week it's been!Monday I went to work at the gym, went home, slept til 12, got up...did nothing. probably spent some money. went to bedTuesday I went to my last day of work at the gym (yay!!), went home, slept til 2:30, woke up, took a bath, did nothing, got a call from boss-man to go do stock-take which I turned down because Alex was coming over to cook dinner. Alex came overTiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134473014681428882005-12-14T00:20:00.000+13:002005-12-14T00:23:34.693+13:00I go back and forth on this topic way too much. and now i feel like i'm on sex in the city or something because i'm totally going back and analyzing the stupid passing/joking comments i made earlier today. how silly can i get? seriously!i'm quite peeved with myself at this point in time....really. pissed at myself.oh well = )Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134368077930918752005-12-12T18:58:00.000+13:002005-12-12T19:14:37.940+13:00corona anyone??Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134043667084454952005-12-09T00:27:00.000+13:002005-12-15T14:35:17.280+13:00dude!!!! so many random relevations tonight. most of which i'll prolly forget before i write them down.oh, i talked to joe. i haven't talked to him in FOREVER! it was good to catch up and see what he's up to. he prolly believed, like many do, that i didnt care anymore. i actually really care about what he's up to and have been quite curious about how he's liking life in chico. i wonder how many Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1134034518395077792005-12-08T22:32:00.000+13:002005-12-08T22:35:18.406+13:00why dont people ever comment? i wonder if anyone actually reads this at all....?Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1133998739668901902005-12-08T12:24:00.000+13:002005-12-08T12:38:59.680+13:00okay, 2 things1-i had some really weird dreams last night. i dont remember any of them, but i woke up with this really strange feeling, almost like i woke up nervous for some reason. i'm not a fan of the feeling, but hopefully it will go away soon.2-minor relevation of the morning that won't make any sense. i already messed up. didnt take long, did it? of course, the bet i made with myself is Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1133950498074353662005-12-07T22:31:00.000+13:002005-12-07T23:14:58.086+13:00i just watched joe dirt. i'm envious of the chick in that movie. Brittany something-or other. She's just really beautiful. no, this is not one of those posts where i sit here and winge about being ugly or feeling ugly or any of that stupid shit. i just wish i were beautiful like her, in that way that pretty much everyone who sees "you" thinks you're really pretty. i s'pose i shouldn't complain, Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1133812722086305392005-12-06T08:42:00.000+13:002005-12-06T08:58:42.100+13:00hahahaha....just had to walk back from work at the gym in the pouring rain! It was wet, but not raining when i left this morning, so I had no rain gear with me. It's not windy for once, so most people had umbrellas out and I was just walking down the street getting completely soaked. I'm sure I was quite the sight. Prolly made it even funnier that I had a HUGE grin on my face the whole way home. Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1133777426454571552005-12-05T22:21:00.000+13:002005-12-05T23:10:26.603+13:00you know, i think the change in me is partially in the ablity to laugh at things that i used to get really upset over. i used to find myself alone at home, with nothing to do, and i would sit around feeling sorry for myself, maybe cry on the worst of the nights, basically just be a sorry excuse of a person and quite depressed. now i'm sitting by myself, once again with nothing really to do, well,Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5228305.post-1133747240630065172005-12-05T14:28:00.000+13:002005-12-05T14:47:20.643+13:00why do i like this song so much? it doesn't really relate to me, except for when i was walking to work in the rain this morning. that sucked. i have stuff i need to do today,and i'm feeling very lazy and quite sore. my legs are all sore from tramping on saturday and my arms/shoulders are sore from sanding the boat yesterday. i wonder why i like working on boats so much. like yesterday, all i did Tiffhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15029405028908365110noreply@blogger.com0